Thursday, January 17, 2008

What Fresh Hell is This? (...D Parker)

Neal was my only sibling; he was two-plus years my senior. He left this world this week. It’s hard to know what to say about this, and there’s too much to say. I have, of course, been here in the hospital and was not able to visit with him before his final passing, the way many of his other loved ones did; it will probably be harder for me to understand that he’s gone.

Neal was an incredibly kind person who had real compassion for others. He also collected records and books on the subject of music (rock’n’roll in particular) and had more knowledge on the topic, by far, than anyone I’ve known in my life.

With my mother’s (and Martha’s) often innovative, always even-handed support, Neal was able to create a satisfying independent life for himself.

He was loved by many, including me, and will be sorely, sadly missed. He already is.

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A quick update on me and my medical condition: I was transplanted with donor bone marrow on January 4, after several rounds of chemo, one of which was apparently rather Byzantine (a kind of last resort to get my white count down) and which created some havoc. Between the chemo and the transplant itself, I am pretty under the weather. I am light years better than I was two weeks ago, though.

There is no guarantee that the transplant will “take”, so there is a bit of a waiting game involved. In the meantime, I have a variety of unpleasant conditions to contend with, but all of it could be worse.

Check back when you feel like it - I won’t be doing anything like daily updates but I will post when I can. Thanks, as always, for hanging in there with me.

7 comments:

E. Claveloux said...

Hi Leah,

I'm so, so sorry about Neal. It is really hard that you couldn't be there with him.

Here's to an incredibly successful transplant!
Eileen

Unknown said...

Like everyoe else, the LIM community is sorry for your loss.

I offer this small anecdote as proof that life can be tragically hilarious, or hilariously tragic, however you want to look at it. The day I learned about your brother being in the hospital, I went home from work that night & turned my CD player on, as I normally do. It's set on random shuffle, and the first song that came up was Monty Python's "Always Look On the Bright Side of Life." And I just started thinking of you & your mom & laughing hysterically at the fucking irony of it all. I don't think I'll ever be able to separate the shit you and your mom are going through with the mental image of Eric Idle on the crucifix singing "Life's a piece of shit, when you look at it" ever again.

Anonymous said...

hi Leah,
i and Danny are so sorry about Neal.he was a wonderful person and we are gonna miss him a lot.

love
vartan.

EmilyM said...

dear leah,

i am very sorry for your loss... wishing you peace and good health.

love, emily

mg_65 said...

Awesome blog, Comrade.

I am very sorry for your loss. It's all completely unbearable. And like every other goddam thing, we bear it anyway.

We watched The Beatles movie Help! and I thought of Neal.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry about Neal. I'm thinking of you every day and hope things get better -- soon!!!

In Stories and In Bones said...

Hi Leah,

You probably have no idea who I am, but we always come to your mom's Christmas sing-along and I spent a bunch of time music geeking with your brother, and hanging out with you in the kitchen.

Through the vector of Sara Lennox, who always brings us to the party, we heard about your struggle with cancer, and about Neal's passing.

I'm so sorry. I'm know I'm going to miss fighting out who originally recorded some obscure 50's do-wop song with your brother. He was a really interesting guy, and the world is poorer without him.

Anyhow, Sara forwarded me your blog, and I'm going check in so that I can cheer you on. I'm glad to see you're taking a turn for the better. Please let me know if there's anything I can do as a semi-local?

Best wishes,
Merav (and vicariously Jon)